All right. I spent the morning looking over the notes we exchanged and thinking it over some more.
I think...I think he's putting on an act. I won't be able to tell until I get near him, because my magic can usually tell whether a person's trustworthy or not. But it was only four short weeks ago that he sent me a note that made it perfectly clear he'd take a risk to look out for me and do something for me that he's not supposed to do. He gave me a book to help me study magic over the summer. He could have had a world of trouble for doing that, if anyone had found out.
See, you have to understand what it's like for people like me, and like Dean used to be. You know how I have to be stupid crawling boot wherever people can see, right? The same probably goes for Dean. We have to lie all the time. He spent years as an Infirmary Rat. They had a whole elaborate system of coded communication all worked out, hand signals and notes and such, and it was all based on maintaining a what-d'ye-call it facade of being one way when you really were something else. They needed to do that to get around the administrators, because they sometimes had to steal food and supplies to treat the sick among the muggles and muggleborn. And they did it to escape punishment and it just made things easier. Probably for him, it's just second nature now. Like it is for me. But that doesn't mean it's the way he really is necessarily.
So I say, give him the benefit of the doubt until you see him again. He may be curt over the journals, because that's what he figures his guardian wants. And it may even help him if you're curt right back at him where other people can read. And then, when you get together again, you'll maybe find out that he can be a more honest friend, when you're alone together, if the people looking over his shoulder think you're not friends with him.
Don't know if that makes sense, but it's the best that I can explain it.
Re: I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up To No Good
I think...I think he's putting on an act. I won't be able to tell until I get near him, because my magic can usually tell whether a person's trustworthy or not. But it was only four short weeks ago that he sent me a note that made it perfectly clear he'd take a risk to look out for me and do something for me that he's not supposed to do. He gave me a book to help me study magic over the summer. He could have had a world of trouble for doing that, if anyone had found out.
See, you have to understand what it's like for people like me, and like Dean used to be. You know how I have to be stupid crawling boot wherever people can see, right? The same probably goes for Dean. We have to lie all the time. He spent years as an Infirmary Rat. They had a whole elaborate system of coded communication all worked out, hand signals and notes and such, and it was all based on maintaining a what-d'ye-call it facade of being one way when you really were something else. They needed to do that to get around the administrators, because they sometimes had to steal food and supplies to treat the sick among the muggles and muggleborn. And they did it to escape punishment and it just made things easier. Probably for him, it's just second nature now. Like it is for me. But that doesn't mean it's the way he really is necessarily.
So I say, give him the benefit of the doubt until you see him again. He may be curt over the journals, because that's what he figures his guardian wants. And it may even help him if you're curt right back at him where other people can read. And then, when you get together again, you'll maybe find out that he can be a more honest friend, when you're alone together, if the people looking over his shoulder think you're not friends with him.
Don't know if that makes sense, but it's the best that I can explain it.